Dreams were often a place that repeated reality or when reality was less than ideal, a place to let my imagination run wild. Since the beginning of last year’s lockdowns, I had been following the ups and downs of a particular pop star and actor. I had discovered his drama series online accidentally. I did not know that he had a new series out! I had followed his other series before, so I immediately was captivated. After over 10 years, his appearance hadn’t changed much and I still found him funny (especially during outtakes).
Whenever I felt that the world was falling apart or life was so cruel, I would watch his live recordings of his daily life or his interactions online since everyone was staying home most of the time too! It would cheer me up quite a bit.
Naturally, one night, I had a beautiful and simple dream that he had finally found the love of his life after many years of being single. Yes, in the dream, it was me! What a dream!
As he was introducing me to the public, I woke up. However, I loved the feeling of being adored by this amazing person that I forced myself to go back to sleep. I was able to continue the dream until I really had to get up for the day. The warm and fuzzy feeling lingered for quite awhile.
Let’s be honest with ourselves. Life can be cruel and sometimes downright disappointing. It’s a pleasant feeling to be able to achieve the impossible sometimes.
For those who got blamed for most of the bad situations or happenings around the home or work place, this quote would be a good reminder. It often only took one or two mistakes. Then, from then on, those toxic family or friends to continue to point fingers at that particular Individual for all the future problems.
Let’s be honest. Who didn’t make any mistakes in their life? No one was perfect ever. Constantly, harassing others gave those people with low sense of self-worth a big ego boost. Instead of supporting others, stepping over others like stepping stones made them feel better and more superior.
When others made mistakes, it’s important to be kind about it. It could be frustrating. However, would you prefer to destroy the relationship and have no more future with that individual.
Or would you want that individual to curse you under the breath and look for a time to have their revenge?
However, this quote was a great way to face those who weren’t able to remove themselves from their chronic offenders. Sometimes, it’s not always possible to cut those toxic people out because of certain situations. Life could be complicated and cruel.
This last Easter long weekend, our family went to visit the final resting places of our family members and friends. This time I decided to purchase white chrysanthemums to bring with me. The weather was beautiful and sunny, so we were able to spend some time together as a family.
It was a lovely day to dedicate to our beloved family and friends.
Ever since I began my second blog, the support has been phenomenal!!
As I grow my second blog, I continue to link it to my original blog as there are well over 3000 WordPress subscribers alone over there. It’s unfortunate that we are limited by the amount of media (photos, gifs and such) storage on each site. Hence, my reason to grow to a second one.
Here, I want to thank you to all my loyal and new subscribers for all your support for my humble blog and all my social media platforms! Let us continue to shine a positive and loving light into this dark and silent world.
Some call it blind faith. However for me, I have always believed that as long as I have something that I really wanted, I shall achieve it some way or another.
Naturally, it doesn’t mean that I receive everything that my heart desires. Realistically, more than not, when it is something that I truly desire from deep down in my soul that matters the most.
It’s interesting how there are people who enjoy stomping over my thoughts of hope and beliefs whenever I express them. They are a walking cloud of negative particles that attempt to envelop and contaminate others around them. It takes an enormous amount of power to back away from these people. Sadly, sometimes I can get sucked into their cruel vortexes when I am not careful. To tear myself away from this, I need to really dig deep inside and concentrate hard on what I really desire….
I am so sorry for hating you so much for most of my life. Even though I understood that I should not listen to all those who enjoyed making fun of you, calling you fat for fun, even though you were perfectly fit, I still listened and internalized EVERY SINGLE INSULT AND “JOKE”.
Even though I tried to hide my constant sadness because of those “INSENSITIVE JOKES” with a mask of high self esteem, deep down inside, it was a perpetual purgatory.
After so many decades, I am completely fed up and am slowly coming terms with my physical changes as a mom walking towards middle-age.
1) Despite it all, I appreciate that I am still quite flexible (still practicing my almost successful splits).
2) I still love my healthy skin, thick hair and string nails
3) Two hours of continuous k-pop Zumba dancing is no problem for me!
Sometimes, it can be difficult at times to climb out of the tearful abyss, but you can do this. Keep doing what you love and DON’T GIVE A CRAP ABOUT THOSE WHO HURT YOU FOR THEIR PLEASURE!!!
As with many moms my age know, combining hormonal changes, postpartum and emotional stress does no good for the body. Women in middle age need to gain strength and heavier bone density to prevent future bone issues.
But let’s face it…. being female, we are the target and focus of fat-shaming by everyone. So I try my best to stand up and against people who don’t watch their words, especially towards the younger generation. People enjoy making fun of how moms don’t care about our weights. Trust me, deep down inside, we do.
But reality is…women’s body is meant to change. Our bones change, our hormones change….
Working out isn’t about losing weight. It’s about increasing my cardio and to release my emotions. Practicing my splits and bridges is about keeping flexible so I can prevent further injuries.
But still, it’s nice to see that mommy pouch slowly going away…. sigh, darn vanity….even though I am the only one in the whole world that notices….tiny victories here….